I really get frustrated when you think a person is your friend, but they make you feel the only way it is possible to keep in touch with them, since I graduated, is if I try to keep in touch with them. They (and yes, grammar people, I know that it is wrong to say they when you mean he or she) don't make any effort to keep in touch with me. So I figured I'll just stay away if that is what they want me to do. It kind of makes me feel like I never mattered to them at all, and they just sort of made it all up. And in a way that kinda hurts. I know Im not much of a person most of the time, but I do notice a lot of things. Enough of that....
If I could change one thing in my life, it would be this: that I would be less shy and try out for different things... Meaning: When I was a freshman, I wanted to run for student council secretary, but I never did cuz in my school, it is all a big popularity contest, not who will do a good job, so I backed down. I wanted to have an authority position. I finally got my chance when I was named editor of our school newspaper thingy. Hmm... interesting since I wasn't really an authority person cuz I was practically the only student who worked on it and I couldn't boss the teacher around. Oh, and I was editor of the yearbook, well kinda, I was named like three quarters of the way through the school year and never felt right about it.
Ok, here is the situation: You have been working for a year and have been doing really good at your job. Your boss tells you how good you are doing and tells you you are such a hard worker and always putting above and beyond extra effort in your jobs. Whenever you have an assignment, you work until the job is done, meaning you don't ever leave work until it is completely finished. Meanwhile, a co-worker, who has worked the same time as you have, always leaves early all the time, never gives anyone the time of day, and complains when they have to stay after for even a little bit. Yes, their jobs are done, but they are done enough to be called done... no extra effort put into it at all. One of the 4 heads of the company are fired and you think you have the job in the bag. Then the co-worker is complaining one day cuz they have to stay after to help with a project because.... they were "hand chosen" by your boss to take over the position. Your boss might as well have shot you in the stomach, tied a noose around your neck, and drag you down 1000 flights of stairs, since that is what it felt like anyway.... This sort of happend to me, although kind of a different situation... When it happend... I wanted to do nothing but cry. But I would never tell anyone about it cuz Im not like that. I just kinda smile and go with it, I coudn't do anything about it. So I just acted sarcastically a bit whenever the job was mentioned... ERRR it still makes me mad.
Sorry, I had to get that out, it has been bugging me for a while... But Im gonna go, stupid backspace... muahaha... later